there are days like today where it is impossible to not be utterly flattened by aloneness. this would all be fine and acceptable if i did not have many moments of non-aloneness throughout my life. and those moments were infinitely more compelling and satisfying than all of the moments that flattened me today. no matter what i did, no matter where i went to escape it. i simply could not, until it wore me down enough to retreat back to the little room I am renting in this house where I have no idea how long i will be staying, in this city where I know even less.
There was one moment of non-aloness at the Museum of Fine Arts Megacities Asia show, that occurred while gazing at Hema Upadhyay’s piece, Build me a nest so I can rest.