I was at a doctor’s appointment. The office was not really an office but more like front counter at a dry cleaner. My doctor was a short and very cheerful Asian woman. She was telling me that the results of my tests (whatever they were) were all normal and I was in good health. And then she added, I did test positive for cancer. But, she added it was nothing to worry about.

There was another doctor, male caucasian, working beside her behind the front counter. She showed him a page of paper which was a printout with the results of my tests. He shook his head and I read his body language as a sign that things were not looking good. Which he confirmed by letting me know that things were not looking good. He confirmed it was cancer, but it was strange because it was a rare form of cancer usually only found in ostriches, dogs, and other animals. He showed me some sort of chart with images of the animals. Kind of like an encyclopedia of animals for children.

I can’t recall what the prognosis was. But afterwards, I got in my car and started crying. My head on the steering wheel.

And that was it.