Today was a continuation of nothing. Or it’s all one nothing that we break up into fragments of time that are much more graspable to our comprehension. By ‘we,’ I am referring to me.

I graduated from crutches to cane. So that something that wasn’t exactly nothing.

And I sent out dozens of texts.

I didn’t even have a receiver.

I just send out these texts into the air, into the void. I don’t expect anyone to read them.

I defrosted a frozen lasagna.

I ate an orange.

And a banana.

I watched the orange sky at dusk darken into blue.

I lifted my knee up and down 30 times (one of my physical therapy exercises).

I moved from one chair to another.

And back again.

I opened the windows.

I stared at the piano, but did not play it.

I’m not quite sure what the point is to playing a piano for someone who doesn’t really know how to play, during a pandemic.

I close the windows when insects fly in and land in my ears.

I close my eyes and when I open them, the sky is even darker. No lights in the distance,.

I hear a murmur but my tinnitus is drowning it out.

I stare at the empty bed that no one had made.

I long for the night when the bed is not empty.